blue like jazz

So, many things have happened since my last post, what a bad blogger I've been!
In light of recent events, I have to say that God really does work for the good. And the best part of that is I have experienced this in my own life (and just in the past 3 weeks alone) countless times. And as much as different things are difficult right now, I know He's got my back. I've been told by countless wise people within the last few weeks (and in my life) that we don't really know our capacity for handling things til we are handling them. God says he won't give us more than we can handle, and I used to believe that was slightly crap but it seems more and more evident that that is precisely true.

But anyway--so "Home for Christmas" opens in 6 days. SIX. days. It really has flown by and tommorow we add mics!

I've been recently reading "blue like jazz" by one of my favorite authors Donald Miller. Liberal, God-loving, democratic donald miller. I know anyone in that bubble of a life in louisville would positively faint at some of the things he says. He has a way of writing where it feels as if he's sitting across the table from you at starbucks. He so often reminds me that things, people, are not always what they seem (in a good way).

Til next time,
many the miles,
megan

Fall Break

oh Fall break, how I love thee!
Anyways, after some craziness, I am HOME...with great news! I got passed by the faculty to KTA screenings, and get to play a great role in Kincaid Regional's Christmas show! I was initially surprised by the latter, I was just sitting on the couch with my mom after a very long exhausting day only to find an email from Shirley. I'm pretty excited, one of the songs (it's a duet) is absolutely gorgeous. Anyway--first rehearsal/readthru on Friday so I'm pretty excited to see who else is in it. AND only 2 days of school this week! YESSSSSSSSS. Monday and Tuesday were off for Fall Break and then no theatre classes on Wednesday due to a theatre faculty retreat so only Thursday and Friday classes--what a great break!

many the miles ;)
meg

Hold Close.

So, Friday finally! Chemo starts today for someone I'm close to. Due to privacy, not going to say who it is, but yea. I've just recently come to realize how intensely fragile life is. Things were fine a month ago, and all of a sudden things weren't. I know that seems simple, but seriously, I think we all take things way too much for granted. Who knows if you'll see that friend tommorow that you had a fight with today? Nothing is garanteed anymore. So, to quote a ridiculously cheesy hallmark card i read a few weeks ago, "Hold close those you love".

many the miles,
megan

Audition Story

So it occured to me last night that I have yet to write about my audition story from about 2 weeks ago. Let me set it up for you, I went downtown to Over-the-Rhine Cincinnati (rough place, apparently; been named the #1 crime spot in America apparently) to audition for a show. Didnt think too much of it, went in, sang 2 16 bar cuts and was asked to stay for the dance call...at 3. It was about 12:30. So I made my way to the cute coffee shop down the street, in my audition dress/heels that hurt. As I was walking, I began to notice how rough it looked around me. Kinda freaked me out a little. Anyway, so I'm walking and all of a sudden I see a...rough looking woman with the tallest heels imaginable crossing the street walking right toward me. She just looked at me funny and I started freaking out thinking, "why is she coming over to me? Is she going to mug me? Dear God, dont let her mug me, oh shi--" She gets about 2 inches to my face, looks at me and says gruffly...."I like your dress"
WHEW.

many the miles,
megan

Good Things.

Rather than try to rehash on everything I haven't written about in the last few weeks, I'll just share some things that've made me happy:

-Wynonna Judd music (i forget about her from time to time but I adore her voice)
-the Torkelsons--it's on YOUTUBE! I used to watch it all the time when I was younger and I recently rediscovered it, I WISH the theme song was a real song so I could get the sheet music, I adore it.
-road trip to columbus to see "Paranormal Activity"--ok, so the movie has terrified me and I can't sleep (lol) but the whole experience was fun, so well-worth being scared.
-beautiful fall weather...bringing out the scarves!
-the wonderfully encouraging people in my life that I've talked to recently that have been constantly reminding me to focus on the good (sara, lisa, monica, robert, jeanine, mel jonesy)
-Kristen chenoweth on Glee...dear GOD, she's incredible.

so there ya go.

Mona Lisa Smile

"For Katherine Watson did not come to Wellesley College to fit in...but to make a difference. " -Mona Lisa Smile

God I love this movie. As cheesy as it sounds, I used to watch this movie at least once a week back in Bible College, even though it didnt get the best reviews, I feel that its message is so important. To settle into a life we are told to be in, b/c we are afraid or for whatever is a horrible thing. This movie always reminds me that to do what I feel in my heart is important, more important than what I'm told. Anyway, back to movie night.

many the miles.
meg :)

Who I Am.

So these past few days have been filled with victories and major disappointment. But the best part is that I feel that regardless of things, I've grown, I've learned and above all I'm better off for it. I had 2 wonderful conversations today with 2 people who's opinions are incredibly important to me. I dont mean to sound overly religious but I really believe that those were God-things. I've learned that I'm done trying to be like everyone else--it's my differences that make me who I am. It's when I"m completely myself, even when performing that makes me who I am. And regardless of how things turn out, I can walk away from it and say that I was the best megan that I could be that day.

many the miles...things will be looking up soon.

meg :)

people.

Seriously, this week was great. Not what I wanted at the end, but this week has really restored my faith in people. Things didnt turn out like I wanted but I was reminded of how hard work pays off by so many people. People have encouraged me, and let me know not to give up...and I really appreciate that. I'm thankful for that.

many the miles.
meg :)

BFA!

Thank you JESUS! After 2 years of working hard I finally got BFA musical theatre, I am ridiculously happy right now! This week has been amazing! :)

megan :)

many the miles!

Love.

I love my room. Not like, LOVE. Adore. Cherish. I know it may seem stupid to go on and on but seriously, it's big, and it's all mine and I literally had the best move in day of my entire college career yesterday. Basically, this year already looks way better than last year. I can't even describe how happy I was last night to go to bed when I wanted, turn off my lamp when I wanted, watch tv when I wanted....well you get the picture. It's already making me very happy. I wish I had a camera b/c I'd definitly upload pitures. Anyway, but yesterday came and went and I can honestly say, it was probably one of the best days with my mom too. You could tell, she was actually excited to see me so happy and started doing things like, "oh you need a dvd player? lets go get one! oh you need a (insert item I completely forgot to bring from home)" P.S. How does a college student forget to bring a PILLOW?! Anyway, so that was yesterday and after getting the best sleep, onto audition prep.

many the miles. :)
meg

these dreams.

dreams are a funny funny thing. Last night's dream made me wake up and go, "whaaaaat?" It began with the 3rd day of school where surprise NKU decided to do "A Chorus Line" (I have no idea why bc NKU did that like 4 years ago)...and a bunch of the freshmen were cast and I got the understudy for Maggie? WTF? 1. I will never be a good enough dancer to be in A Chorus Line and 2. How did my friend Monica get cast in a role that actually does not exist in the show? Weird. The whole dream ended in our first dance rehearsal and hearing mark yell, "Megan! Stretch! Leg above your head! Leg above your head!" (which does NOT happen!)
bahaha...weird, but HIGHLY entertaining.

many the miles.
meg :)

Rare Gem

Good good day. After a morning at the gym (now I'm lifting 70 lbs in the weight room thank you very much!) I hung out with Sara all day. We watched "Red Eye" (scary) and "High School Musical 3" haha and loved it, can you believe it?

Life is a funny funny thing. I was thinking about that on my drive home with my new regina spektor cd blaring (thank you sara for some free music!), I got to thinking, things really are meant to be. Who would have thought that little blonde girl I met in the 5th grade would turn out to be one of my best friends for the next 11 years? Sara is one of those rare friends of mine that I can literally be away from for 6 months, come back, plop on her couch for a few hours and it's as if we've never been apart. And that's a rare gem in my world. And basically we can discuss anything (which we discovered today lol). It's nice to have friends who never judge, never condemn, who remember your 6th grade middle school schedule and that time in 8th grade when you fell in the middle of the hallway....and the time your parents got divorced or that time you had your heart broken. I never have to revisit a single story, and that's nice. So...lesson of the day/thought for anyone who reads this (if anyone), call your oldest dearest friend and thank them for being that constant presence in your life. :)

many the miles--and only a week til I go back to school!
meg

A Thought for Those Who are as Passionate as Me.

BAH. what is the deal? the last 2 days have just been...disappointing. Today was ruined by some comments made to me about my major at school after 10 AM...NEWSFLASH: do NOT discuss such things with me if you are misinformed about such things. I dont tell you how to run your business...dont tell me about jobs in the theatre. So that was frustrating.

I was furious in my megan way for about an hour when I came home...I'm a deep feeler. I know that sounds ridiculous but I just read a blog by a friend that admits the same thing...when I feel something, I FEEL it. When I'm sad, the tear ducts flood, when I'm angry watch out, excited? you'll be able to tell. Sometimes it's a blessing and a curse. But what I most hate is when me, my being, what I contribute to the world is brought under fire. And that's no good. I would rather hear this from someone who has known me for 5 seconds, not 21 years.

Thankfully my mom calmed me down, as did my little sister who is about to embark on the same profession. There is more to theatre than just Broadway. There's sooo many jobs, tours, children's theatre, internships, etc. that exist in the world, and at this point, most jobs are not safe. I refuse to be in a profession that I hate. I went to a school that I came to despise...Boyce. I loved a majority of the people but I distinctly remember the countless nights of sitting on my dorm bed at Boyce sobbing...I didnt know what I wanted, I was confused, and what's more is that absolutely NOTHING sparred this; no fight with anyone, no upset. I talked with my friend meagan rampley for hours...and finally one night, I just stopped crying, looked at her through my tear-brimmed eyes and said, "I have to go study theatre, i HAVE to" And she smiled, hugged me and said, "I knew you were going to say that". Everyone that was close to me understood that and patted my back saying, "good for you, for hearing that call now"...but there were others. Others who looked at me differently, that said things like, "You're only going to do CHRISTIAN theatre...right?" And I had to deal with them. They were mostly at church but dont think I didnt notice. When I did that show at UofL with a scene in my bra and panties, I knew what they were thinking, why would/could I do such a thing? But that is me and that is them. And ultimately, when I'm 30, I'll wake up every morning and do something. Whether that be a survival job or a theatre job, who knows? But I do know this. Some people are called to be ministers, some teachers, some entertainers. I may not make it to Broadway, but my life will be just as fufilling being an acting coach in Chicago/NewYork, or working for a theatre. And at the end of the day--that is my life.

mood

UGH, bad mood today. I got up early, went to the gym, did 25 min on the treadmill, a mile on the track and the weight room. Then voice lesson, which for some reason has been a struggle. I know my teacher does all this to make me better but not getting to sing all summer took a toll--I'm a singer dammit, not a dancer and it's frustrating to do a show and....well, there's more to say to that.

My sister got her first car, but I've been in a mood and just want to go home and breathe. One thing about me is that when I'm done, I'm DONE. Translation: when I want to go home, I really really really want to go home. And I hate not driving myself b/c of this. Sooo yea. It's just frustrating when absolutely nothing will make you happy. grrrrrrr

many the miles.
meg

love, not like.

God, I love Target. And by love, I mean adore. And by adore I mean cherish. :) Seriously. Last night I went to Target and got the most adorable, affordable stuff for my new dorm room, god I forgot how much I miss having things to get...anyway, that's all i have to say today before i take my walk ....God I love Target.

Rain Rain Go Away.

Rain Rain go away...after waking up to a monsoon aka the flood that left most of Louisville indoors, so begins my first day semi-off the couch?

After staying up way too late last night chatting on facebook (as usual), and getting ridiculously frustrated with some of my professors for this school year; someone explain this to me, WHY cant you submit your textbooks needed for this semester so I can save myself some money and get them online? It's really just one professor b/c the other ones have been gracious enough to email me back. But seriously, it gets frustrating. BUT I am very excited to live in the suites this year--not in the nursing hom dorm I lived in this past year, for anyone that knows me well knows that the building was not the only....ok, nuf' said.

I've gotten some very cute posters and decorative dorm stuff for this year b/c after three years i finally get my own little room! sooo excited to get up when I want and go to bed when I want, plus it's going to be so nice to have alone time when I want it. ALSO, I get to decorate how I want...anyway, videos are up of "Guys and Dolls" on facebook, all the hot box girl numbers are up and I was shockingly surprised with how uniform we all look together-yay.

Apparently Louisville is on a flood watch and my car wont be ready til Thursday. I originally had an audition planned but with my wisdom teeth taking a toll on my voice and my face that's looking like a negative. BUT I finally get to take off the duct tape on my car and will have a new fender! yes! Although, I feel like the duct tape gave it some character.

oh well
many the miles.
meg

day three.

So....day three of the couch. Today was probably the worst of it, my painkillers/antibiotics made me sick, and by sick I mean calling Ralph at 10:00 this morning while the rest of the family was at church. I'll never be able to look at Jello the same way again (ew). Other than that I've been sitting on the couch feeding my addiction to "brothers and sisters" dvds. Finally I managed to eat some watermelon (who would have thought THAT would settle my stomach?) and pass out for a few hours I woke up apparently looking (as my mother said) more like a "baby chipmunk" lol I just want to look normal again, my family teases me b/c I wear my brown bathing suit coverup around the house to lounge around in. What can I say? It's comfy. Only three weeks til I go back to school so basically I have all my audition material, I just need to memorize and prep. Is it sad that I really really just want to look/feel normal so I can go to the gym again? Oh, and so I can ya know, LOOK NORMAL again.

TO DO (before school):
1. Headshots/resumes (5) -walgreens? meijer/walmart?
2. Get smell good fragrance for room
3. shoes (black ballet flats)
4. over the door mirror/curtains from target

There's other things to do but that's the gist of it.
Many the miles...and hopefully I'll get to get off this couch tommorow!
meg

like a chipmunk.

How can 4 little teeth cause this much misery? I had my wisdom teeth out (all four!) yesterday. Apparently I'm one of the last to get this done according to my friends...it only took about 40 minutes but WOW was I gone on the anethesiac. So now I look like a chipmunk and all I can do is lay on the couch in my brown coverup and watch TV and eat icecream or yogurt or soup. AND it's driving me nuts! I made myself do 50 mini arm-weight sessions yesterday and today b/c I can't go to the gym, but yea. Lots of percoset and painkillers which actually made me sick last night (note: projectile ice cream and apple juice are dreadful to see)

BUT besides looking like a cartoon character, I once again proved myself right--I DO look like I'm 16. The receptionist at the oral surgeon's office thought I wasn't even 18 and made my mom fill out all the paperwork and then was like, "Wait, YOU're 21? Oh, I'm sorry you look so young!" haHA. greeeeeaaaat. So school starts again in about three weeks which basically means I need to work audition material. I'm not stressed about it...yet.

more later.
many the miles (although right now it's just the couch)
meg

Many the miles...to the church.

Ok, venting time.
When you grow up, things change. Opinions change, outlooks on things, beliefs etc. My first semester of college I went to Bible college. When I got there I realized that it wasn't for me and wasn't where I was supposed to be. In the last 3 years, a lot of people's way of life have changed--I watch my classmates get married, have kids, switch majors...because that's how life is...things change. The biggest frustration for me has always been people. Not all people, but people who just dont seem to get change. And feel that it is their business to point this out. I still go to church, I still have faith, I may go out with friends and have a drink b/c it's legal but in no way does that give someone the right to judge. God knows hearts, people don't. When I was in high school, being judgemental was an everyday way of life. I cringe when I remember the comments I made about people in my school, and to be honest I was one of the crazy religious people who forgot to love people. So sometimes when I get facebook posts/messages that have hints of judgement from people or references to that "good little sweet christian girl", it really gets under my skin. B/c you know what? that high schooler who walked around condemning everyone was so unhappy and only liked her life b/c it was "perfect"--life isnt perfect, things arent perfect, and people aren't perfect. This is what I know now.

I'm a liberal, theatre student, 21 year old...that goes to church. And I love people for exactly how they are. And ya know what? I'm fine with that.

many the miles.
meg :)

On my way...

and as I'm going along
I carry with me
promises that can't go wrong
as I tavel on, my way.

Left my troubles all behind me
back there where I climbed on board
Jordan River's where you 'll find me
it's wide, but not to wide to forge
and as I'm going along
I carry with me,
promises that can't go wrong
as I travel on...my way!
-Violet the Musical.

Perfection.

So Long, Farewell.

sooo back to Louisville--show's over. After a crazy last few days of shows and literally no sleep and driving over 200 miles, Guys and Dolls closed for good. Last time in Falmouth--it was bittersweet, but still, I'm glad to move on. I'm looking forward to what else I get to do with my summers from here on out. I was completely exhausted on Sunday, having partied with some of the cast the night before and barely getting any sleep the night before that...and then everyone and their mom decided to call me as I was driving back to Louisville!

So this week I'm a counselor for the Paddlewheel Musical Theatre camp, the kids perfom on Saturday, and besides from this week, I have lots of down time til I start school again in late August. LOTS of down time--hellooo audition material!

And I've rediscovered my love...Heine Brothers' Coffee...thank god for vanilla chai.

many the miles.
meg :)

exhausted.

so...exhausted. Yesterday I drove back from Louisville to Falmouth where me and Patrick talked to some teenagers at the public library about theatre and how we got to where we are. It was a lot of fun, sharing stories and answering questions like, "do you really like...kiss on stage?" haha. very cute and very fun to do.

Anyway--so we had our 4th to last matinee today and then went to tyler's house for a crazy scavenger hunt. soo many illegal things took place for teams to "win"...and by win I mean lose to the birthday boy who surprisingly won? Surprised much? But anyway, Monica and Robert and I formed the "3 G's" team...2 Gingers and a Gay. HA. So we went running throughout Meijer to get some of our list accomplished...and then after an hour, Monica accidently deleted EVERY SINGLE picture from her memory card. GONE in 2 seconds...so we went and redid every picture we already had..bahaha. But now we have pictures of me on top of a police car as part of our "list"...how? why?

So anyway, EXHAUSTED needless to say. Emotionally (from series of events) and physically drained. And yet I lay here typing at 2:25 AM, when I could be sleeping.

more tommorow.
many the miles.
meg

Imperfect.

I keep most of my blog upbeat and raving about the good things in life, but as I think we all know, things are not always perfect nor should we pretend that they are. As I sit here on a couch, in a house I dont feel like I belong to, or in, I realize this. Sometimes when I come home, I am faced with having to account for things that aren't right, things that make me feel less as a person. While I am not perfect and do not pretend to be for one moment, being belittled and to feel as if I am not welcome or a part of the house I grew up in...hurts. I don't write this for pity or for anything, but just to get it out. It really fucking hurts. And it's hard to come back to that. I heard once that people go into the entertainment industry for a sense of rewards...not awards or things like that, but for the reward of feeling worthwhile to someone, an audience member etc. And I truly believe there is truth in that. And as I sit here on this couch I sleep on whenever I come to Louisville, I do find it overwhelmingly sad that I feel this way, especially here.

Many the miles.
meg

vanilla chai.

Ok, so I haven't written in AGES...and by ages I mean about 2 weeks. So we've had about 14 shows, which translates into lots and lots of downtime and hair curling and going out and wine and being on campus and well, you get the idea.
I really didn't think I was going to be nostalgic about this show ending until the last few days (we've had a 5 day break from shows, so I went back to Louisville). And it's been weird not having my good friends close to me or down the street, even though it's only been for a few days!

Anyway, HTA did well at OCTA, I gotta admit, I've never been so nervous in my ENTIRE life as I was before we did our excerpt. I was sweating, it was gross. Beats SETC, auditions at school, everything. Whew. BUT I got in my car that day after everything was over and just completely burst into tears because it was really "over". I surprised myself, I haven't cried over a show since "Sound of Music" my freshmen year, but I did. I cried. I'm sappy, so there. :)

But all in all, this show has been a lot of fun, mainly because of the people in it.

Today, I found myself getting a Vanilla Chai from Heine Brothers and went and browsed 2 different Borders. I noticed something. In the fiction section, almost every book I picked up had something to do on leaving, on getting out. What does that say about us as people? That we're so trapped in our own lives that the only thing we can do is read about leaving our situations? Anyway, it got me thinking. Yesterday, I saw some family at our fourth of july...sometimes it can be a constant reminder of things that are imperfect and hard to explain. I found myself today dwelling on it, on the past, on things I can't change, til I began to dwell on the fact that I cant change it, and it's just imperfect.

many the miles.
meg :)

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On my days off....

Well life has calmed down since my last post. You may wonder why I'm up on my day off at 9:40...the simple answer is that my sister woke me up so we could talk before she had to go to work...and now I CANT get back to sleep :(

Anyway, speaking of leslie, she's going to be in "Godspell" this summer--she got a really good role so that'll be good.

HOWDEEEEEE....so "HTA" brush-up rehearsal was last night...it was really weird to run the show we did a month ago without anything, very funny though, I actually missed a cue hahaha whoops! I barely could remember "Rocky Top" but the second run-thru went much better than the first! So now I'm back in Falmouth, we have another rehearsal tonight and dress on thursday night after my matinee and the actual excerpts on Saturday...whew. I like staying busy though, Falmouth is pretty boring and it's nice to have to be somewhere other than the theatre for a change.

OH, I was incredibly sunburnt from my previous post...so bad that Robert took a picture, which is the picture above. I didn't even realize how bad it was til I got to the theatre and everyone in "Guys and Dolls" freaked out over it.

On another note, it's been so much fun to do a show with my buddy Robert. We're "dance class buddies" but it's been great to get to do this show together--too much fun (and waaaaay too many inside jokes to count! hehe) Anyway, so the other night we went out to eat, robert had had a few drinks and came up with the catchphrase "it's Robert mother-f---- Scott Fields, Megan bitch!" the way he said it was so funny that I made him record it so it's his ringtone on my phone! (which was kinda pointless seeing as I practically live with my phone on vibrate). ANYWAY, so I was playing the audio for one of my friends at the theatre when all of a sudden (in the middle of the worst part of that audio) this little old woman who helps work tickets came out of the elevator! I nearly died laughing, and Patrick could barely contain himself--we could tell she had heard it, it was so embarressing but very funny at the same time. WHY do those things happen to me?! lol

oh well.
many the miles.
meg :)

4 hours.

WOW. WOW. WOW.

(the pic to my left is the closest thing I could find online, my car is gold but you get the picture)

Ok, so yesterday after a crazy tired matinee, I left to go do a really easy babysitting job, I got half way there and my car started making a gargling sound. The wheel locked up and it started smoking. Needless to say, I FREAKED out. I didnt know what to do so I drove to the nearest Valvoline in Alexandria, KY. The people there were super sweet and told me it was the belt in my car--apparently it had ripped and that causes basically the car to work. Also something else was wrong with it...anyway, so I dropped it off there and they said they'd fix it and it'd be ready in the morning. So I went and hung out at Tyler's and swam and such...so much fun. ANYWAY. So I woke up this morning early waiting for the call only to hear "Ma'am, we dont think we can fix this--we dont have the resources"--I was furious and ready to rip Valvoline. So Tyler drove me down there, and they were apologetic and went above and beyond to get my car repaired. They called an auto store, had an employee get it, gave me a discount, calmed down the Tow Truck guy from Triple A that had been there for 1 hour and were just overall so great. So anyway, after an hour trip back to Falmouth with the tow truck guy (AWKWARD), I had to walk from the car service place back to where I'm staying....it's 92 degrees. AND I'm sunburnt from all of this.

Greeeaaaat.

megan

2 day break!

YES. finally--things are back to being planned :) Apparently, I'm going to be housesitting on my week break in July from the show...soooo excited about that, the dog is so sweet and easy to take care of PLUS getting to use the pool is always a perk! AND I get to be a counselor at the Paddlewheel kids' musical theatre camp in Indiana the week I get home from "Guys and Dolls"--ladies and gentleman, a PLAN for some of the rest of the summer! Exactly what I needed!

Anyways--"Guys and Dolls" has been going well, some opening night glitches, but on a whole, good opening. I got to bed last night at almost 4 AM and a few of us did the show on not much sleep at all but in all, the matinee audience was very vocal--ESPECIALLY when we rip our gowns off in "Take Back Your Mink"-wow. So now we have a 2 day break from shows, I'm basically babysitting for the entire time..yay for making some money!

Opening!

Opening tonight! Whoohoo for no more notes and just getting to enjoy it at this point!
Anyway, so last night we had our last dress that went soo much better than Thursday's dress. No wardrobe malfunctions (haha) or anything, except for some missing dice...(john? lol) So that seemed to go over well. I love having tons of downtime in the 2nd Act...plenty of time to...take PICTURES! Our costumes are cute as can be, I've never seen a production where the Hot Box girls get such amazing costumes!

So Assembly last night...2 Amaretto Sours and were they just water or something? very weak. After ordering an LIT, taking a sip, i realized that I just couldn't stomach it and gave it to Robert...we then proceeded to sing Reba and Linda Davis' "Does He Love You?" to Falmouth...haHA.

oh well...time to relax, enjoy the day!

many the miles

meg :)

for real?

oh dear LORD. ugh. I think that says it all right there.

I hate when you plan something and then it falls through--especially when money is involved...today was just one of those "really? really?" kinda days....and then rehearsal slightly fell apart, it'll be fine but I am growing so thankful for people that are keeping me sane, such as my sister Monica (cause I know you're going to read this soon). I can't wait to be your roommate...p.s. your clothes are cute (haHA, you understand what I mean...I'm sooo glad I'm not alone in that whole realm!). AND my little Robert whom I adore and dances up a storm and said, "do I really give a fuck about the damn palm tree?" WHOOPS. I love tons of other people but these two really made me smile today...oh, and Patrick did a good impression of how I grab my boobs in "Mink"...if only i could upload that video. ha.

OH and I dodged a major bullet(figuritively)...I should always trust my instinct. Always.

21+ night tommorow!
many the miles.
meg :)

And so it begins...

hahahHA, and the embarressing incidents begin:
tonight I completely wiped out after "Take Back Your Mink", butt on ground, the works, but the worse part was that there was a slight "wardrobe malfunction"--one of my assets were barely exposed for a brief nanosecond and...yep. why do these things always happen to me? but still, very funny lol

we start dress rehearsals tommorow--opening is in 2 days, we added hair and makeup and some costumes tonight, and all us hot box girls have come to the conclusion we have all been born in the wrong era, as it should have been the 1940s! but all in all, despite some difficulties, the show should be really good and once we open, all stress will be behind all of us.

my pillow is calling my name.

many the miles.

meg :)

More.

I was awakened this morning by the most intense thunderstorm I've ever witnessed--seriously, the thunder was literally shaking the windows of my room. Anyway, what can you do at that point other than just lay there?

So I don't mean to get all "I've had some thoughts about thunderstorms--here they are..." BUT as I was lying there, I got this feeling about how intense but incredibly peaceful thunderstorms are. Reason being--you know that it's going to pass...eventually. That's so true in my own life, whether that has been a brokeness about something, or doubts/insecurities or even something that deals with things that are too personal to discuss even on my blog.

My good dancer friend Robert and I left the theatre after rehearsal last night (which lasted almost 5 hours--we start dress on thursday). And sat outside our cars and talked about how right now we both have this overwhelming sense of "I want to do something more than what I am right now"--in a lot of aspects of life. Just MORE. And how hard it is to let things go and just trust that eventually that will happen. That this will pass. Like how a thunderstorm eventually subsides....:) Same is true for another good friend of mine who is upset over his current situation--I remember being 17/18 and feeling my world was crashing over so many things, I look back now, as a 21 year old and I see that the things that tore me up were things I learned from and grew from, and eventually made me this person I am today.

ok, that's enough writing, back to sleep, storms over.

many the miles.

meg :)

have you ever realized?

Have you ever realized that you've become one of "those" people? Like, take hummus for instance...I used to make fun of people who ate this stuff, I said it looked like throw up and would never touch it. And now it's number 1 on my grocery list everytime I go in Krogers.

Same with country music. I used to completely make fun of the lyrics of songs along with the rest of my non-country listening to family etc. And now I've done 2 country shows and I found myself singing "Fancy" at karaoke at a bar near the theatre last Friday night.

Just a thought.

ok, back to my hummus and reba cd.

many the miles.
meg :)

$75? Say what?

VICTORY. I found 2 inch black t-strap character shoes for $42 in LOUISVILLE. Ohio has let me down--no store had my size and the ones that did were like, "oh, that'll be $75"--$75 for someone who doesn't do a lot of dance shows?....eh, I'm thinking "no" lol So my mom is having to overnight them to me...she's really thrilled about that lemme tell you. haha, oh well.

Anyway, we open in a week and it's starting to come together, I'm a little sad to have missed the Tony's last night but it's starting to really work out. I'll be thrilled for us to actually open so I can get a majority of my nights back--I love that we have so many matinees, waaay more free time!

So "Honky Tonk Angels", we start rehearsals again in a few weeks for ACT. haha, a few nights/afternoons will be "Guys and Dolls" in the day and then "HTA" at night, what a difference! fun though.

watching the Tony clips on youtube just added to my obsession with the new musical "9 to 5", I can't wait to visit Tyler in NYC and see it!

many the miles.

meg :)

many the miles.

I spent the beginning of today (a total of 2 HOURS--waaaay too long in my opinion) changing my blog around, adding new things to make myself happy.
Still loving how amazing "Chorus Line" is--I've been listening to the music mostly all day and catching up on reading old blog entries.

My best friend (since I was 5) is engaged. Sooo happy for her, we used to plan her wedding when we were 12, I can't believe in a year it'll be for real.

Anyway--we did a run-through of the show today which seemed to go pretty well, except now I have to go get some t-strap character shoes that I cannot afford, whoops! I'm going to call around tommorow--PLEASE god let someone have some in my size!

I've been on a Sara Bareilles kick lately (although Kala introduced me to Lady Gaga and now I'm a fan). That's what this new blog is called, off her "Many the Miles" song. I was thinking the other day about all the different types of people I've met at all of the theatres I've worked for, what an eclectic group lol Some good, some bad, but all in all some really wonderful people to learn from. I've always been really thankful for non-egotistical people who show me how to be grounded and do what you love without losing a part of yourself. That's always so important, and that's what that song reminds me "many the miles...(too many sunsets I haven't seen)"--I mean, who knows where I'll be 5 years from now? But I do know this--up til this point in my life, I'm really thankful for the shows I've been a part of and the people. "many the miles".

:)
megan

Reading List....

So lately, since there is not much else to do in the day before rehearsal, I've taken to becoming a complete book worm. Here are some of my favorites as of lately:



Amazing memoir: A Little Bit Wicked from the ridiculously talented Kristen Chenoweth--lots of insight into her as a person, her friends, and how she got started in NYC. It's really interesting how much of her life has not been mentioned in interviews she has done. Also how many parts she didnt get because of a look, height etc.




Plain Truth by Jodi Picoult--mystery, actually I got hooked on it after watching the Lifetime movie with Mariska Hartigay...about an amish girl accused of killing her baby--surprise ending.



Eat Pray Love by the insightful Elizabeth Gilbert--about a woman who ends a love-less marriage and her journey to India to receive guidance. Perfect read if you feel like your life is mundane....beautiful story.



Picture Perfect by Jodi Picoult--love story, but not. More about a tragic pattern of "love" and a woman strong enough to make a decision for her and her baby. LOVED IT.

ONE singular sensation!

WOW! What a great night! Tyler and I went to see the National Tour of "A Chorus Line" and it was amazing! Toooo much fun!

The Cassie was phenomeonal. not only did she belt her face off but she had extensions for days--unreal. I was surprised to see Val make it at the end--I didnt want her to, maybe they changed who made it for the revival cast? Anyway, the Paul was fantastic as well...even though i dont credit myself a dancer, I still really enjoyed it. it's such a good reminder to every performer i think. GOD i hope i get it.


It's our only night til the show opens and then my weekends are gone.

megan :)

Life.

That first one was ridiculous but it's whatever. Character development? Anybody?

Ok, I'm gonna let it go.

In other news, I decided to audition for Dollywood in Pigeon Forge next year for next summer--and the incredible Teresa is letting me use one of her cute country songs to audition with-YEY!

In other news....life is pretty damn good :)

P.S. we got our costumes last night for "mink"--basically black lingerie that leaves NOTHING to the imagination lol we're gonna sell out for sure!

meg

Hard Work.

Hard work pays off.

It really does :)

more later.

Listening to the Thunderstorm...

My birthday came and went--what a great day :)
Bar Louie was awesome with all of my friends, some from school some from Guys and Dolls--and afterward was nice too :)

megan

21!

HELLOOOO BLOG from my bedroom!

Now I have wireless (just in time for my 21st birthday today!) Very exciting. Anyway--so the birthday bash at Bar Louie on the Levee is tonight after rehearsal-YES! I'm very excited--Robert and I had a "congrats on 21" birthday drink last night-Amaretto Sour. I was a complete nerd and wouldnt drink it til it was officially midnight and my birthday--I can't believe I'm already 21...where has it gone?

Well...off to get ready, then rehearsal....hopefully I'll remember it all!

meg

Hi outside world.

Hi Internet...I've really missed you.

So rehearsal rehearsal rehearsal.

I feel like I truly dont trust blogs, like I trust my journal etc. I'm always afraid to discuss something that is going to be seen by someone and taken the wrong way etc.

Anyway--I've decided to babysit my life away this weekend...2 jobs (7:30-11:45 on Saturday and 9:15 AM-12:15) on Sunday. I miss Honky Tonk. I'd be completely lying if I said I didn't. I miss doing a show that I love and feel good about myself doing. It's been hard to do a show where my primary focus is doing something that is my weakness aka dance. But I'll do it and grow from it. It just is hard to not compare myself to the better dancers out there--I have to keep reminding myself that we all have our gifts etc.

Also, I'm on a new diet thing to make certain people happy at my school...not really a diet but I'm eating less and I've already lost weight. With dancing everyday and only eating hummus, reduced fat wheatthins, apples, ricecakes, 100 calorie packs and metabolism drinks for my water, who WOULDNT lose weight? But it's whatever. I've also been looking into writing some songs over the summer...I've got my guitar and I figure why not try. But we shall see. My birthday is Monday and I'm SO freakin excited to turn 21. Lots of fun.

megan

4. days. off.

Ok, so we have a total of FOUR days off! YES! However, this means from here on out every single night, I'm getting worried about my birthday. I had planned to go to Bar Louie in Newport for my 21st and now I'm really worried we wont get out in time and such. ugh.
anyway--"Take Back Your Mink" went really well, and it'll be cute as pie too.

What am I going to do for four whole days? Well, besides babysitting on Saturday night, absolutely nothing I guess! "Gilmore Girls" it up and read etc.

wow, boring.

a drink sounds nice about now, too bad I have to wait another week!
meg

Not Much.

WELLLLLLLLLLLL......I was born a Coal Miner's...ok, I'm cheesy.

It's whatever. Anyway, yesterday I went to the library for a few hours which I loved. I used to browse bookstores/libraries for hours trying to find stuff to read and I completely forgot til yesterday how much I love it. Anyways--I came back with tons of good books :)

Anyway, not much going on here in Falmouth, just rehearsals and such. We learn "Take Back Your Mink" tonight--yay for stripping lol

not much to report, except Adam should have won American Idol, not Kris. Just sayin'

meg

I Love You, a Bushel and a Peck

Ok, first rehearsal, 2nd and 3rd have come and gone. Went well--we started choreography last night on "bushel and a peck"--kicklines. 2 kicklines.
I'm going to lose 10 lbs just from that one dance--which is great, it'll be super cute when we all figure it out.

Anyway--I do miss HTA. I got my guitar out the other day and started playing Coal Miner's Daughter out of habit lol Anyway, but Falmouth is beautiful and peaceful, and not tooo far (45 minutes) from NKU, so I'm currently waiting on my voice lesson with the fabulous Lisa. Starting to work on my audition material for fall auditions--and yepppp that's about it.


I was so excited today in my voice lesson, Lisa told me that doing HTA really strengthened things in my voice that I have been working on for the past year--yaaay! So excited about that!

In other news, I realized today that old habits are beginning to creep back. whoops....so, we shall see.

meg :)

um...crisis averted?

Truly, stress is my middle name lol

Homeless much? I freaked out needless to say after i talked to dean. Completely freaked out. I cant believe I'm going to admit this (please mom never find this blog) but I actually smoked 2 cigs last night b/c I was stressing out so much, but that was fine, I never do that and dean and i went out on the fire escape and just chilled. Surprisingly it actually calmed me down (as did Monica and Tyler) But I called someone and she's going to figure something out (thank god). I was just ilke, "WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!"
my life is waaay to complicated for its own good.


BUT
tonight is closing :( bye darlene til June.

In other news:
2 weeks from today is my 21st birthday!!!

meg

um hi, crisis averted?

Rain Rain Go Away

Hello friends!
After 2 incredibly relaxing days in Louisville doing nothing but watching the Hills and Sex and the City and bonding with our new puppy...I am back in Newport.

The day recap:

So I literally packed up my life (which I'm getting pretty good at p.s.) and threw it in my car and began my trek to Newport. It was fine til it began raining cats and dogs. It was RIDICULOUS. And sooo much traffic. Traffic for days. I stopped at McAllister's on the way there and read my Kristen Chenoweth book that is amazing. But anyway, rain rain rain rain rain. AND I was wearing my blue dress--WTF. So anyway, after a freak out, and hydroplaning like 5 times, I made it to the theatre. and we did the show. yay. And now I'm at deans.
3 more shows. more later.
meg :)

Recap on Life....

Well...it's been MONTHS since I've last written. Which is pretty shameful for me, last summer I literally wrote a blog a day (which I'm getting back to this summer).

Ok, recap:
HTA with Footlighters = love. I was terrified at first when I got cast (30-something songs with only 2 other people!) but this has turned into one of my favorite shows I've ever done....love it. I'm going to be sad to see it end but we get to revisit it for ACT so I guess it's not too sad. But still, I've really loved it and learned from it.

So we close on Saturday night. EEK! We've had 12 shows and the best audience EVER last night, they were so into it, it was great. AND the best part, there have been no body mic debacles with me in this show! *knocks on wood*, that's a FIRST! (for those of you who dont know I have been cursed with the unfortunate mic problem; in every show I've done it comes on at the most horrible times: when I'm going to the bathroom, when I'm running lines/songs with myself etc. It's so nice to be in a show where the audience leaves happy and has really enjoyed themselves....some of the shows I've done that is not the case (I still feel bad for my parents sitting through "Angels in America", lol) Anyway so yea.

meg :)