Late Night Thoughts.

So it's about 4 in the morning...and I cant get to sleep.
Why is it I get all inspirational and deep at this time of night/day?

So I've been reading some books lately and journaling and such, and I've come to have some pretty radical conclusions.

I realized tonight when listening to an interview with a very well-known broadway performer that as a life goal, as a person and as a performer, I just want to be authentic. For me, I just want to strive for authenticity in my daily life and in my life onstage as a performer. I hope that that comes out in my life, but if not, that's really what I want to aspire to. When I used to be into guitar/nashville/recording, I remember that's something vince the record producer strived to instill in us artists. To be authentic. And it's true, I feel like I can hear authenticity in people's art, in their voice. That's probably why I'm drawn to more acoustic sounds vs loud intense rock bands.

I've been also thinking about the human concept of loving people the way they are. sara groves writes that "lovin a person just the way they are, it's no small thing, it's the whole thing; love and pride cant occupy the same spaces baby, only one sets you free." I feel like my constant struggle is wanting acceptance from people, such as at my old church or friends that i grew up with in accepting the fact that I'm a little different than I used to be, in my career choice and in life, but I oftentimes forget that that swings both ways. I need to love people the way they are as I want people to do for me. People are such beautiful creative and wonderful messes...everyone has a good piece of creativity in their body, something that allows them to give some kind of talent back to the one that created it; whether that be playing an instrument, singing a song, writing etc, it's all there. And what's so wonderful about that is it's all been given for a purpose.

just some thoughts :)
meg

1st day off!

Ok, so already one day of vaca in Louisville and it has been greeeeat.
Had a mini footloose reunion tonight with nic, kp and carmyn; we watched the video of the show last year...and all I have to say is, "WHO daddy..the BRIDGE club?" HAHA.

so i have a whole week off here in louisville! yeaaaa

meg

Saw My Breakfast Again...lol

Well I saw my breakfast again last night at about 6 pm after the matinee lol..(EW)

Yesterday I sat through a camp worship service before the show. And we sang "Blessed Be Your Name". And the words of that song didnt really hit me til late last night. Yes, I party. Yes, I swear like a sailor 90% of the time. But me and God talked last night for about an hour. I cried, I asked questions and while I didnt exactly hear anything back, I felt this calm peace that He is in control. As cheesy as that sounds, He is. And the words of that song came back to me, "You Give and Take Away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say Lord Blessed Be Your Name".

Just some food for thought. :)
meg

...and that's pretty much it.

Well it's about 1 in the morning...and I'm bored. I cant get to sleep.
We have a two day break from shows..thank god.
I got a new phone, now I can actually see what people text me lol

and that's pretty much it.

ha

meg

Ohmygod you guys!

I havent written in so long! (not that anyone is probably disappointed but still lol)
I just got done watching "Legally Blonde the Musical: the Search for the Next Elle Woods"--and I'm hooked. I love it and I was completely riveted tonight watching who was going to be voted off. Cheesy, I know.
Anyway--"Big River" opened on saturday---yaaaay. My mom came (and she's coming back haha)and my sister and brother. My dad is coming sometime this week, yikes. But it went well. We had today off and tommorow and then shows on Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday and Sunday--whew!

That's pretty much it, I went to the mall today, YES to Forever21.

-meg :)

Vocal Rest...boo.

Well, not much has happened since Monday...except I'm putting myself on vocal rest :( boooo. If my voice teacher was here, she'd have done the same thing. I just felt my voice getting tired last night in rehearsal. On wednesday night, i got a call from some people to come hang out, so I did....lol It was fun and I hadnt seen a lot of them in FOREVER. So today I'm just hanging out and watching youtube videos and NOT talking.
-meg

Me, the bed, and "Brothers and Sisters"

Soooo...birthday came and went. It was great--I got to do stuff and see people at home that I havent seen in a while, like my voice teacher. The only thing that kinda sucked was having to drive back to Falmouth yesterday (it took foooorever), and then having to have rehearsal for a while. I love rehearsal, but I was so tired yesterday! lol
But anyway--from here on out, we have rehearsal every night, I cant believe we open in 2 weeks, that's so soon! But other than that, that's pretty much all that's going on...the bed, me, and my new 1st season of "Brothers and Sisters" are best friends!
haha

-meg