During Math Class...

So today has been...fun. Read a lot, listened to my ipod, drank green tea, same ol' same ol'.
Today in math, like a good student, I decided to start writing down ideas for my vocal repertoire book haha In the middle of listing, "Ballads from 1950's/DreamRoles", I realized the teacher was intensely staring at me. HA.

But yea. I took a nap for 30 minutes and it was great...I haven't taken a nap since...well, forever.

But Math Sucks.

An Announcement.

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN:

MEGAN HUDSON IS BACK!
AND OVER IT.


Thank you God for showing me the light and protecting me!

Currently Happy From...

I'm currently happy from:

-an extremely easy babysitting job
-someone calling me "meg" today on instinct...makes me feel like I'm back in louisville
-a conversation based on the need to create performance art and theatre
-hot tea 3 x today (camomile, honey, and lemon)
-jazz class being cancelled (and having at least 4 hours between classes!)
-watching an amazing dance performance and appreciating the talent people have
-reading (plays by Tom Stoppard, Beth Henley, Lanford Wilson, Sam Shepherd, and Atonement the book)
-new music for my ipod
-a good first voice lesson with my new teacher

:)
-meg

2nd week...

Wellll...almost the end of week 2 back at school. So far, it's been...interesting. Last week was not a barrel of monkeys. Except for the fact that dean and I have been hanging out a lot, it was already the 2nd day of school and I can't imagine not seeing him at least once a day. It's nice to have a true friend, one that wont talk behind your back, a shoulder to cry on, someone to laugh with, a hand to hold during auditions etc.

Anyway--so I've been reading a lot lately (who's shocked by that? lol). I read Divine Nobodies this week, by Jim Palmer. I read it last year when I was still at Bible College and dreaming about the day I would finally move to NKU, it was definitly a great thing to be able to read it when I'm at this stage in my life, so very different from this time last year. Even within the past semester, I feel like a different person (in a good way). I feel like sometimes God gives you moments you dont think you can handle so you'll lean on Him more. Well I'm leaning....lol

I cant wait til Kaitlyn moves up here though--it'll be nice to have her here....we're gonna take some classes together! YAY. We're very excited about having to decorate our room...I'm going to Crossroads church with some friends on Sunday, I'm excited, I haven't been to church in...well, a while. But apparently Crossroads is great.

I worked out tonight with Dean and Caitlin. He's working out for Cats, I'm working out because I want to. Found myself listening to lots of music while I was on the treadmill. Big fan on Jennifer Knapp and Sara Barielles lately. Their lyrics are so true and honest.

I am really excited though b/c I'm starting to read The Coast of Utopia by Tom Stoppard. It's supposed to be a great play. I keep reading one or two pages of Buried Child by Sam Shepherd and then I forget I'm reading it. I need to get back to it.

meg :)

Reflections.

Did you ever have one of those weeks that you just wanted to curl up in a blanket, sob your eyes out and listen to joni mitchell and not talk to anyone?

I have. And believe me, it's not been fun. This week was all kinds of emotions--auditions, other stuff, my great-grandma, cast lists being posted, finding out who real friends are....

I could just recap the week, but I'm not gonna lie, I really dont want to. I will, however, talk about my great-grandma. My great-grandma was thought to have been on her deathbed this past week. Her body was failing her. My grandma (nana) and her sisters were all at the hospital. I went to see them all before I went to an audition in Bardstown. I walked into the room and saw my great-grandma...she looked like she weighed almost nothing, with my white hair plastered to her face. My nana told me that she had been having (my ggrandma) her own tent revival telling them throughout the night how much Jesus loved them, and urging him to "hurry". It was as if she was in her sub-conscious. My ggrandma even started telling her life story--about how God has protected her from all kinds of things throughout her life. They said it was the most moving thing to hear.

My great-grandma woke up, and my nana said, "Megan came to see you mom!" My ggrandma looked at me and said, "oh megan! megan's here!" She kept saying, "Such a gift, such a gift from God!" She then went on about how Jesus loved me, how I need to lean on Him and "dont ever forget that." I had tears brimming in my eyes, as I calmly told her, "I know grandma, I know." My nana told her I was on my way to an audition, and my ggrandma responded, "So gifted, that voice, such a gift from God...sing for Jesus megan...sing for jesus." I couldn't believe that someone in their sub-conscious, on their deathbed, had that kind of faith. It was amazing to watch, and I will never forget that.

Not to sound preachy or anything, but God knew exactly what I needed. It's been a not-so-great morning and while I was in the middle of writing this blog, I got a phone call from one of my great friends in Louisville. I hadn't talked to her in so long and it was so nice to have a listening ear to hear about things that have been bothering me. We talked for almost an hour and a half and she reminded me of something. God is in complete control. That may seem like something I should always know, but I lost sight of that this week. I was glad she reminded me of that.

Regionalism...

Yesterday was a lot of fun. Got to hang out with some friends I hadn't seen since December, so that was nice.

Anyway--I am very extremely happy right now because....I have almost completely gotten rid of my regionalism! (at least, I know how to turn it off when I'm performing--I'm still going to talk like normal when I'm just talking with people, but on stage? I know how to make it stop!) I worked with one of my director-friends from UofL this past December and my voice teacher/acting coach and they explained it to me in terms of singing...so I was doing my monologues yesterday for some friends and they confirmed it...I dont sound like a country hick anymore! lol
I was very thrilled--considering that's something that was brought to my attention last semester and frustrated me to no end. So today, I babysit and tommorow see "Phantom of the Opera" on tour in Louisville with my family. Anyway, I think I'm actually pretty excited about auditions on Monday. Which is a first. I guess hearing about how freaked out a lot of other people are about their shakesphere monologue makes me feel better about being freaked out about mine. Make sense? eh-probably not.

But anyway, so not much exciting happening here, a lot of people aren't back yet, apparently a lot of people are going to move back later today or tommorow, so we'll see!
-meg

back at home.

Well, I'm back at school! yay! It was not much fun dragging all of my stuff back to my apartment in the downpour, especially b/c I was wearing clogs and water began to creep in and soak my socks. ew.
Anyway--so last night Trent and I went and got some hot tea at Starbucks and walked around the Levee, we went to check out the Barnes and Noble. Hot Tea+Books=good times. Anyway--we didn't get anything, but it was a great way to begin spring semester. So after 2 computer crashes and losing everything on my laptop twice over break, it now has a new hardware and it runs beautifully! I am so happy--winter break was stressful due to that and the auditions coming up. I think I'm pretty prepared. I need to work my monologues a few more times. But I think they will be good. I was thinking last night how weird it was (but great) that this is the only school I've stayed for a second semester at. And as me and Trent were driving through the streets of Newport, and at NKU, how many memories I already have just of different places. Everytime I drove past parking spots, the cafeteria, the Levee, the starbucks, I was reminded of different times last semester. Most of which made me smile, it was just really nice to me considering I really never had that with my other schools.
Anyway...but today I have to get my parking permit. And that's it. That's all I have to do today. So I'm going to be working my monologues and possibly going in my pjs to the permit office. Cause I am exhausted. Tommorow I babysit 5 kids for 5 hours through the babysitting agency I work for.
-meg

Another blog.

Well, I have decided to go back to school either Tuesday night or Wednesday afternoon. Yes, classes dont actually start til next Monday, but I want some time alone before the chaos begins. Plus, I need time to work on audition material without distractions...so yea.
So not much has happened since I last blogged...a few realizations about stuff since having a good long talk with a great friend of mine last night. Made me see some things in a new light. which is always a good thing. It's funny...sometimes no matter how much you have thought about something, it takes someone who is completely detached (except for being my friend) and older to give you good insight that you may not have gotten from others. Just a realization. I know, right? lol

I'm so happy to go back to school with plenty of reading material and my ipod (which has yet to receive its name--any suggestions?). There were so many times this past semester where I would just be hanging around the theatre building and want some good music to listen to or have a good book--now I will!
Exciting.

Well, back to monologues.
-meg

Fun Times.

Today was fun times. I had coffee with sara this morning, whom I haven't seen in almost a year, and we had a wonderful time catching up and talking about each other's lives...it's great to have friends that I may not see all the time and yet even though we dont, everytime we get together, we pick right back up from where we left off.

So after that, I went to my voice lesson and got to mix belt my audition song (which I was nervous my voice teacher would want me to sing the whole thing legit style, but she was good with the mix belt--yay). We worked on monologues for a while, always fun to speak with a british dialect for a while.

After that, I went to one of my friend's megan's to see her new house--which is absolutely adorable. We hung out, got some chic-fil-a and then watched "marie antoinette" (which I absolutely adored--how did I miss seeing that movie in theatres?) Anyway--it was great to hang out with another good friend.

So it was a great day with good friends...I'm very thankful for that.
-meg

winter break thoughts...

god, i haven't written in this thing in so long!
Anyway--so winter break was pretty okay. Kinda boring, I babysat a lot, housesat for about a week, and stuff like that. Tommorow and on Monday I'm gonna work at the JCC for the winter camps. It's been so weird being back for a month, I miss my friends at NKU a lot. Oh well, I'll be back within a week :)

This is definitly a rhetorical question, but have you ever gotten the feeling you've changed so much (for the better in your own opinion--which is really the only one that counts), that you've grown apart from really good friends? I have definitly gotten that feeling over this past month. And I understand it--last year at this time, I had just left Bible College. That's so weird to think about--that was only a year ago. I feel so different from then. Good-different though. I like myself so much more now. I feel so very free. And happy with life. Unafraid to take risks, when in high school that was the very thing that hurt me, in high school and for the first semester in college at Boyce, I lived in a very comfortable bubble. But that made me restless and wishing for something more, and so I left my very comfortable bubble and took a chance. Thank god that that chance turned out to be something wonderful. Sometimes I really think about that. What if I had stayed at Boyce, even though that was so obviously not where I was supposed to be? That thought, wondering what my life would be, makes me happy I chose to do what I did; to go study theatre away from Louisville. Anyway--back to the change thing. Over this past month, I've realized just how much I've changed. Sometimes friends grow apart--I've begun to accept that people you're friends with for years sometimes grow apart. But yea. For the longest time, I used to be so caught up in what people thought of me--how I lived my life, things I said, who I was...and I realize now that that doesn't matter. Those people dont live my life. They aren't me. So...just a thought...back to my Gilmore Girls Season 7 with Wild Sweet Orange Hot Tea...it's really cold outside, and I want nothing more than to get out my big afghan blanket and listen to Sara Bareilles' cd and read some of the plays I've gotten for christmas upstairs in my room. Some might say that doing that on a Thursday night over Christmas break is boring, but ya know what? It's perfectly fine with me :)
Wild and crazy huh? lol